SCORPIO (October 23-November 21): Triumph does not depend solely on fighting the crusade until an outward acquiescence ensues. Efforts made publicly toward a desired end must be balanced with more refined private work: practicing not pushing, cultivating faith, surrendering to your version of Divine Order. There are reasons, beyond our humble understanding, why your fevered quest is periodically tempered by circumstantial worries, delays or distractions—this is your chance to address the esoteric questions raised by the serendipitous pause. If these words are too 'out there' for your get-on-with-it-already impatience to bear trudging through, Scorpio… well, that's too damn bad. The apparent intangibility of what I'm writing to you has everything to do with how you ought to spend your week (the last, incidentally, of this Mercury retrograde). The medium is the message. Lacking a clear idea of how to apply this to your specific life, try discussing the deeper reasons for your situational stall(s) with your more mystical pals.
Boy, is that quest bit accurate of late. Everything is stalling, I am frustrated with myself beyond belief.
And yeah, the discussions with mystical pals is happening.
Okay. So I am not a person who really buys into Mercury retrograde. Now, I got born with it so perhaps it doesn't apply to me in general-- at least, I don't have broken shit more than usual or travel problems or whatever when others do. Before this I had one major MR-type incident happen during an MR and otherwise it has been uneventful.
I have, however, been expecting August to be a month where shit is likely to start flying. Not even due to astrology, mostly because my mother and my shrink are going to be on vacation in the first two weeks of August and when everyone goes AWOL, shit is likely to go off. If I had a boyfriend right now I'd be expecting an impending dumping under these circumstances or something (it's happened before), but at least I don't have to worry about THAT.
But JEEBUS H MOTHERFUCKING CHRIST DID I GET DRAMA BOMBED within the last 24 hours.
(a) After having The Talk, my mom's boyfriend is really super not willing to commit and she still doesn't want to break up. I have been attempting to talk sense into her. Like "you're in your 60's, if you want another husband, do not be monogamously committed to an out-of-towner for 4 years waiting for him to change his mind" kind of sense. I don't really expect it to last because this is the first time she's been in love in 40+ years and thus she is crazy.
(b) You know how they say all the ex-people come back during MR?... Yeah. I DID NOT NEED THAT.
Especially mindfuckery to me is that a bunch of ex-friends have re-occurred again last night and I just don't know what to make of it. Are they possibly back for good now or what? Am I welcome amongst them on a regular basis again or was it just a one-off thing? Or a casual thing? What is going on?
I just don't get why someone would utterly dump another human being and then sortakindavaguely change their mind and contact them again. Especially when they seem to be doing it in a "just to say hi" sort of way and disappear again. I do not like it. Either come back for good or let it go, man, but don't poke me with a stick and then run away. I'd rather people just outright hated me than be all, "yeah, I still like you, I've just moved on and don't care if you are in my life again. But hi!"
I found this kind of funny today because I am avoiding some people and yet I had to rewrite an e-mail 3 times because Yahoo kept deleting it.