Taurus (April 19-May 20)
Now would be a good time to realize that you cannot proceed through life with two competing sets of values. What seems like superficial confusion often masks this very issue — that you’re trying to make decisions based on deeper principles that conflict with one another.
Oh god, this is so true and my exact problem. I want stability and creativity--and you cannot have both at the same time. Does. Not. Happen. I can't bear to give up the safety to chase after whatever makes my heart happy, because my heart ain't gonna be happy if I need to go to the emergency room and end up broke and homeless because I followed my heart and gave up that sort of thing. GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
As long as you’re wondering whether you want to do this or that, you’re still hanging out on the surface.
Also totally true. I can't make a commitment to Following My Heart And Dreams and be totally okay with no safety at all. I don't want anything THAT bad...but then the inner nagging continues. Argh.
When you find yourself asking why you want to explore one particular option, and why you want to explore some other particular option, and how you feel about those reasons, then you’re getting closer to the heart of the matter.
Good, but so far I can't tell :P
Yet the real discovery comes when you find out that you have several programs running at the same time, which guide you in different directions. These conflicting programs will be problematic only if the conflict is ‘unconscious’ — that is, if you’re not aware of the roots of the debate, or even that the debate has roots.
Eh, I'm aware of it.
Those can reach into many places, but the one thing they have in common will be the past. You now have the opportunity to decide what values are truly your own, and you have a bold moment to allow your life to be guided by them and nothing else. Between where you stand today and the confidence that this will give you, there’s a process you’ll undergo — and it will take you into some forgotten places. You will benefit from learning, and from using what you learn to make conscious choices. This way, you will be one person, guided by what is actually meaningful to you.
Uh....? I don't understand this at all, actually.