Saturn Return Can Bite Me

Yeah, that's my problem right there.

"I think self-help books are like talismans that we set on our bedside table each night and then scan the cover of each morning. But rarely do we actually read them. The books are stand-ins for our effort, but generally we’re not dedicated to change, just the fantasy and notion. What could be more absurd than a book like The Secret where all you do is sit on your ass thinking about what it is you want and then waiting to receive it. Talk about entitlement — another epidemic that seems to be undermining our culture.
My experience indicates that people will only make efforts to change when their process of understanding is engaged. If you don’t understand something how can you make even a gesture to change it. Experience, as understanding, is the one quality books can not impart."

And more Michael Lutin

Wonder why...

you can be so fired up one day about a person, place or thing
and feel so blah and uncertaiin and anxious and worried the next?
Not even one DAY to the next.
One minute to hte next.

You can be all inspired and jazzed and enthusiastic and optimistic
about a project or a relationship.
And then you think it's all a bunch of baloney.
It erodes your self-confidence as well.
You can be all hopped up and energetic, in a hurry to put it out there, but then..but then..
you just don't give a flying crap about it.
Well, you do, but the obstacles are too great.
The effort is impossible to maintain. One second you want it NOW the next second you think its not worth the wait then you tell yourself be calm be cool everything takes time
then agian you say its not worth it and back and forth ten times.
It's cosmic.
That is exactly the vibration going on: a contest between microwaving a slice of pizza
and slow roasting a potato.
This conflict that will NOT go away immediately.
Uranus in Aries is hot because Aries is hot.
It needs immediate attention.
It craves action NOW, not tomorrow or even five mintues from now.
It wants what it wants when it wants it. It's tired of waiting around for results.
God helps those who help themselves type thing.
It's NOW goddammit, Now!
it's Lady Ga-ga at her most outrageous.
Its Russell Crowe throwing a phone at a wall.
It's a molotov cockatil party.
it's everything you do when you are y fed up with being manipulate and pushed around.

PLUTO IN CAPRICORN, however, is cold because Capricorn is cold.
It waits
It watches.
It reacts slowly and deliberately.
It doens't fly off the handle or come in its pants.
It is the calculation of the possibility of results before moving forward.
It understands the consequences of every act and therefore it protects its king with its pawns..
Not the swiftest player on the team but the one with the endurance.
It grows slowly like a Sequoia tree,
like moss,
like mold in your bathroom, and just as hard to cut down and get rid of.
It can always be counted on for its wisdom,
because it has the benefit of allowing experience to teach it before jumpiing into anything.
Or anyone.
The two forces are operating in the heavens. In world politics. And in your head.
That's why you're hot one day and cold the next.
It's cosmic menopause.

Michael Lutin's Daily Fix again

more on the retrograde of Saturn at 29 Libra from February 7- end of June: what you need to do at this point:
NO, not sit on the toilet. THINK! Continue on your way, knowing that there is no shortcut, no device,no button you can push to make everything happen the way you want---the way you think you want. Are you certain of what you want and where you want to go?You may think you are but we bet you are NOT.
Take this time to rethink the whole thing. You've got about five months to work it out and negotiate.If you take the time and effort, it will be a win win situation believe it or not. Even tragedies and losses have something to teach us, so for the moment rethink everything. Do you know how easy it is for negative thoughts to creep in ?This is what the demons love.It's the crack they love to slip through.And yes, it is still all about 1983 whether you were born then or not.
You must make an effort to persevere.

Oh, hah, just looked at "Next Week In Review."

TAURUS AND TAURUS RISING Work would be a total drag if you didn’t have all the new found freedom to look forward to. You have a whole new vista opening up before your hungry eyes: new notions and goals to pursue, fresh opportunities all around that could easily bump you up to a whole social scene. You should keep in mind the little fact that unless you are interested in making some long-term changes on the inside, it will simply be more of the same series of endless distractions that end up not really satisfying your appetite.

True enough.

SCORPIO AND SCORPIO RISING
You have only begun to explore the oceans of creativity that lie within you, just waiting to be tapped. Since you know that the search for fame or glory ridiculous, why waste two seconds bitching about and dwelling on how some jerks get so far in the world on unimaginably crappy talent. Right now you’re on your own path, which at times may seem really stupid to you, considering the effort you’ve put into it. Greatest asset: a dedication few people have the balls to hang on to. Greatest liability: loss of faith.

Yeah,  won't argue that the path looks stupid. Big time.

And I have pretty much lost faith these days. Flushed down the toilet.

Pinky and the Brain

Oh yeah, this is why I don't do online dating... I'm picky AND I'd rather build a death ray.

BRAIN: (Turns off computer and walks to the edge of the cage, stares off into the distance) Enough of this foolishness! You know what we're going to do tonight, Pinky?

PINKY: Go out and try to find someone in person, so we can see them for who they really are instead of dismissing them offhandedly based on a few lines of type and a couple of pictures?

BRAIN: No Pinky. We're going to try to take over the world with my army of remote controlled pigeons I've trained to poop on anyone whop dares challenge our dominance. It's a much more practical and achievable goal.

PINKY: (sighs) I'm lonely.

BRAIN: Shut up Pinky.

Today's Daily Fix

DAILY FIX TUESDAY
1 feb
Is someone standing in the way of your "happiness"?
This may not resonate with you
but we bet it probably does.
Are you with somebody (personal or business)
who for one reason or another is not fulfilling your needs
but someone you can't get away from either
or
hankering after somebody
you think you could give you everything you really want
but scared to go for it
either that or the person is unavailable.
Seems llike someone is ignoring or avoiding somebody else?
Getting little or no response?
Blame it on Saturn.
Time. Almost stops. Progress interrupted. Seems to take forever waiting for tock after tick.
The other shoe fails to drop. The wheels of justice all but grind to a halt. Traffic is jammed. Judges
are absent from the bench. People scramble to create order out of the rising tide of chaos.
Until clocks are adjusted within, people feel depressed, lethargic, worried,
fearful that resolution will never come.
They get stuck in the lowest dip of the cycle, forgetting that it is just a cycle and will
certainly eventually go back up. It can be a period of contemplation and working harder with more patience and determination to arrive at a satisfactory solution for everyone involved,
or a sense of hopelessness.
Everything slows down, so there's nothing to be gained by hurrying
except to be set back further.
Timing is everything
and for starting relationships
the timing is all wrong.

And this week's horoscopes for me...

TAURUS AND TAURUS RISING

Career and/or reputation issues been nagging at you? .It won’t be easy to get motivated if you can’t stay focused or dedicated. Not surprising, though. No matter how thrilling a possibility can be at the start, everything gets old after while. Besides, you shouldn’t have to be bugged by insignificant, tiny, puny, details that swarm around you like mosquitoes. Every time you swat one, you hear the whine of another. Gotta realize that well there are simply no shortcuts to happiness or success.

SCORPIO AND SCORPIO RISING
A long-term family/.home issue is about to be resolved at last. As soon as you clear up this final drip drip drip that’s been keeping you awake in the middle of the night, you’ll be ready to come out of your shell and perform as you have never performed before. It is going to take guts, faith and the ability to say good-bye to the familiar, let go of some ties and move to a new place in your life. Over the next several months keep that faith no matter what. Don’t be afraid of the blank page.

Horoscopin'

AstroBarry:

TAURUS (April 20-May 20): Now is the time to take your hard-line stance, on staunch behalf of what can only be dubbed as your most fundamental integrity. Presuming you have deeply pondered the full ripples of ramification that accompany this stance, Taurus, you ought to know exactly what this firm resolve means to your life, and to the lives of those your stance will affect—with absolutely no illusions that some 'escape-clause' technicality might permit you to wiggle out of the one or two self-limiting restrictions you're most ambivalent about. (For consistency's sake, you must accept the sacrifice along with the profound gains.) If all this is understood and accepted, expect a vast increase in the honor afforded you from all directions… even, in a weird way, from those who'll come to dislike you more than ever, due to their discomfort with your hard-line. (Can't please all the people and stand for something.) And if you haven't worked out all the ramifications? Well, the justified reactions of push-back you receive as a result, though not exactly pleasant, are for the best; they'll help you better see what had been overlooked in your process. Swallow the bitter pill, and integrate this difficult knowledge. This also boosts your honor.

 Michael Lutin:

A door is opening

A door is definitely opening

It takes time to grasp the enormity of the change

taking place in your life.

This transit of Uranus

coinciding with Pluto in Capricorn

creates a vacuum in the life you thought you were leading

thrusting you into a new existence.

For survival alone

not to mention future security and prosperity

you can't resist the change,

even while struggling to return to your old life.

There's no way back.

You have to go forward.

You have to go on.

Even if you are confronted with

an uphill struggle

or

an impossible battle

 

TAURUS AND TAURUS RISING

It’s definitely skitsy. Part of you thinks it’s all over. You’re done for. Finished. Caput. They’ve got you now. You’ve royally gotten screwed or screwed yourself up royally for the final time. But...on the other hand you are full of hope, excited and jazzed to contemplate the fact that , guess w what. A lot of your troubles may soon be over, problems solved, doors opened, and who knows” maybe even prosperity without fear. It’s probably a balance between your believing you can control the outcome just by being positive and thinking magically. Not so. You also have to understand the laws of cosmic reward and retribution.

This sounds interesting

Astrology calendar with lots of details.

More Michael Lutin this week

Can't you just feel the love?
NOT!
HOLD YOUR BREATH!
Time has stopped.
Uranus is about to go direct.
Don't try to predict. Could be an explosion. Could be a dud.
The war is definitely starting, however.
Breakups are likely.
Eclipses mean something is over.
SO over.
Especially if you live on the US west coast
as you will see in coming months.
Wherever you are, you have to let go of some illusion about yourself
that is no longer serving you.
It's hard, too,
mainly because you still need your dreams, hopes and wishes,
the ones you think will bring you
a happiness you think you desrve.
Only thing is,
except for the thing you're scared of being cheated out of,
you are already happy.

How to cope with your current crazy

Medusa has some interesting tips.

"* Look to the house with Taurus on the Cusp and note how you HAVE done pretty damn well there. Congratulate yourself and know that area of life is going to get even better by May 2012.

* Check the bit of your chart with late Libra, where Saturn lurks and do something rigid, linear and planned there.  Instant angst relief.

* Where you have early Aries, cut yourself a LOT of slack. Don’t try to be ‘straight’ in this regard. Individuate. Grok that the irritation/slo-mo sensation now is actually your helpful omen as to where/how you want to be. It speeds up real soon."

This week's Michael Lutin

monday 5 december
There's an enormous burst of energy in the planetary alignments this week. That's the good news. The reason we've been talking so much about taking the high road is the fact that the Full Moon is an eclipse
at the South node at the same time the planet Uranus is going direct at zero degrees Aries.
It's already cooking and you must be feeling it already.

Just kidding!
Well, not necessarily literally.
Although, you never know how you'll react when people around you hound you,
bug you and drive you to distraction. Which they will totally do if you let them get to you.
It helps if you remember that you're bugging them as well.
Everybody is annoyed with everybody else. Out of patience. Everybody has had it.
Nobody has an ounce of patience left and they want action and they want it now.
They're tired of being hassled, manipulated, stalled and stonewalled
and it's definitely fish or cut bait time.
Only thing,
can't totally.
If you make too many rash moves now, you're going to regret them.
You are desperate for a permanent solution to problems that have dragged on too long,
and your are being pushed into action by the impatience of others.
It's just that although you definitely have options and there are definitely solutions
to the issues and problems that have been dragging you down and holding you back,
there are still details to iron out
decisions to be made
negotiations that have to be drawn up
and compromises made.
Compromises?
In the mood you're in?
Remember
no matter how chaotic or whacked out any situation is,
cloudy or clear,

YOU ALWAYS HAVE OPTIONS