"And I think I’m beginning to understand that while preparation is key to receiving the world’s bounty – and hard work is part of that preparation – so is the ability to articulate what you want, and the willingness to claim it. It’s important to use all your gifts to create a life that is a sincere offering to the gods, but prosperity is a dance you must do with the unseen forces of the collective. You can’t achieve prosperity in a vacuum, not unless you own a mint. Prosperity is not a closed system; the money you hope to attract has to come from other people. And the minute you demonstrate a willingness to accept help from the collective, the oppressive weight of trying to earn a living is immediately cut in half. There’s no shame in letting others carry you part of the way along your journey."
It’s important to prepare the Cosmic Bun of Goodwill and Intention, to do the work of finding the stream, and to drive down to the water to send it on its way. But once you’ve done your part, maybe it’s perfectly all right to let your offering be carried along downstream in the wind, or stuck to the bottom of a boat, or even in the belly of a duck – propelled by collective forces that can carry your wishes far beyond the limited reach of your own, small imagination."
This kind of thing drives me nuts. I haaaaaaaaaaaate depending on the kindness of strangers--or even friends and family because everyone is flaky. I always feel like if I can't get it done alone and have to wait for heeeeeeelp, then I'm screwed. Of course, I'm kind of in a rage about this topic right now because my mom decided to break the sunroof of my car by "helping me fix it" (it was fine! not broke! told her multiple times to stop and she would not!) and now I have to look for heeeeeeeeeeelp and attempt to get ahold of car dealers--which flips me out now because I don't trust dealers worth a damn and they can tell me any ol' level of bullshit and I'm not going to know differently. I am taking an auto mechanics class right now to learn things like that, i.e. what's bullshit and what's not, but this time even the instructor was all, "You're screwed."
GRRRRRRRRRRRR. I hate dependency.
"In Shamanic Astrology the Rising sign represents the tribe that we are called to in the lifetime. I am called to the Libran tribe, the tribe that is all about perfect and equal partnership. The Moon sign represents the tribe that we have come from. I have a Taurus Moon, this is the tribe of the aristocrat, the courtesan. I had spent lifetimes playing the courtesan and enjoying the pleasures of decadent human living, it made sense that I feared a 'love relationship' would take me away from my spiritual quest, for these were very Earthy experiences that I had lived in my previous experiences with love and it would have been easy to get lost in once again. However I was moving away from a courtesan experience of lovemaking and into an equally partnered one, one that would serve my life purpose.
The Sun sign in Shamanic Astrology is the sign that fuels you, it is the energy that makes you go, however the Venus and Mars are equally as important in helping us to define who we are as astrological beings.
The following is a shortened version of the list of archetypes and is quoted from Daniel Giamario:
ARIES: The Virgin Amazon
TAURUS: The Lover
GEMINI: The Divine Comedienne
CANCER: The Great Mother
LEO: The Queen
VIRGO: The Priestess
LIBRA: The Beloved
SCORPIO: The Sorceress
SAGITTARIUS: The Adventurer
CAPRICORN: The Matriarch
AQUARIUS: The Visionary
PISCES: The Selfless Servant"
I have to say: totally liking the idea of a sorceress being my tribe. Hah.
I find this topic confusing, but this explanation is not bad.
I decided to look at an eclipse table and see if any eclipses lined up with significant years for me.
1996 (started dating): Apr 3, 1996 7:07 PM Sun 14 Ari 31 Opposition Moon 14 Lib 31(LE). That one literally kicked off within a few weeks of my dating life starting at age 18, hah. On my Mercury/Pluto/nodes.
1997 (dad got diagnosed with a disease, I graduated high school and went on to college): nothing hitting anything significant on me. Probably hitting on my parents' though because the big thing then was Virgo and Pisces. I don't have any of that, but that's their ascendants/descendants.
1998 (significant relationship): Aug 21, 1998 10:03 PM Sun 28 Leo 48 Conjunct Moon 28 Leo 48(SE)--near my Saturn. Relationship kicked off a few months later and was a very Saturn Return-y (for him) one and me (Saturn transiting 7th).
1999 (relationship ended, started working):
Near to my Mars and Saturn in Leo. Both the relationship ending and the job starting were in fall.
2001 (graduated from college, lost job): June 21, 2001 7:58 AM Sun 0 Can 11 Conjunct Moon 0 Can 11(SE)--hitting around my Jupiter in Cancer. Not that lucky? Graduation happened right before that, got laid off around the end of the year. Around the beginning of 2002 I got another job and relationship at the same time.
June 24, 2002 5:42 PM Sun 3 Can 11 Opposition Moon 3 Cap 11(LE)
I don't think this one really is ah, responsible for any of that, but I should probably mention it. Hits around Jupiter again.
Around the start of 2004, the relationship ended:
May 15, 2003 11:36 PM Sun 24 Tau 53 Opposition Moon 24 Sco 53(LE)
Nov 8, 2003 8:13 PM Sun 16 Sco 13 Opposition Moon 16 Tau 13(LE)
Nov 23, 2003 5:59 PM Sun 1 Sag 14 Conjunct Moon 1 Sag 14(SE)
Around my Venus for the first one, Uranus for the second one and my moon again on the third.
In the later end of 2004, I had wisdom teeth surgery and a flooded apartment that I had to vacate for several months:
May 4, 2004 4:33 PM Sun 14 Tau 42 Opposition Moon 14 Sco 42(LE)
This one was on Uranus.
Oct 27, 2004 11:07 PM Sun 5 Sco 02 Opposition Moon 5 Tau 02(LE)
In the vicinity of my ascendant--this one went on during the apartment/tooth drama time.
In 2005, my dad went into the hospital for the rest of his life.
Apr 24, 2005 6:06 AM Sun 4 Tau 20 Opposition Moon 4 Sco 20(LE)
2007: dad dies, no significant eclipse action going on for me then. Go figure. But again, it was a Pisces/Virgo time going on and that hits my parents more than me.
2012: I have both temporary and permanent job changes going on:
Nov 25, 2011 1:09 AM Sun 2 Sag 37 Conjunct Moon 2 Sag 37(SE)
June 4, 2012 7:11 AM Sun 14 Gem 14 Opposition Moon 14 Sag 14(LE)
Moon and Neptune.
2013: birthday eclipse again around ascendant:
Apr 25, 2013 3:57 PM Sun 5 Tau 45 Opposition Moon 5 Sco 45(LE)
I get way disillusioned and eventually get a car a few months later.
And in October will be...
Oct 8, 2014 6:50 AM Sun 15 Lib 05 Opposition Moon 15 Ari 05(LE)
Oct 23, 2014 5:56 PM Sun 0 Sco 25 Conjunct Moon 0 Sco 25(SE)
Mercury/Pluto/nodes and asccendant/Sun. I wonder what shit that brings on?
Now to be fair, let's look at years where eclipses hit my planets but nothing I remember as being significant happened: 1995 had Uranus and Sun/Ascendant, 2000 had a hit on Mars, 2008 and 2009 had hits on Mars and Saturn, 2010 had a hit on Jupiter, 2011 had a hit on Moon. But now I'm kinda wondering if I just don't remember anything specific. I know a hell of a lot of Teh Dramaz was going on at work from 2008 on, but none of it started to screw with me until around 2011-2012.
Now let's categorize by planet and drama:
Sun/Ascendant: surgery and flooding, dad going into hospital, basically giant emotional drama, car buying: So....not good, overall.
Moon and Venus: dating, probably foreshadowing relationship ending.
Uranus: dating, flood, surgery--not good.
Mercury/Pluto/Nodes: dating, on a good scale.
Saturn: dating and work, but not consistently identifable drama. Plusses and minuses.
Mars: dating and work, but not consistently identifiable drama.
Jupiter: job, dating, but not consistently identifiable drama. Started out good for what I could identify.
April Elliot Kent has an interesting take on customers and your moon sign.
"n astrology, the Moon is the symbol for the public. So in your chart, the Moon represents your natural relationship with the public – specifically, with your ideal “customer,” the person:
"Think about the best client you’ve had, the best job, boss and coworkers, your best friend. What made them so great to spend time with? What were their personalities like? How did they respond to you? Were they independent or really into being with you all the time? All of these qualities are ones you should expect to find in your ideal customer… and the Moon in your birth chart can help you find them!"
So mine as a Sag moon are supposed to be "adventurous, independent, trailblazing." Maybe? Independent, at least.
As for the customers from hell....
"So if you’ve got the Moon in difficult aspect to some planet or other – well, you’ll have some issues, and you’ll magnetize “helpful” people who will do some Nightmare Client Kabuki Theater for you!
It’s almost impossible to be objective about what your own Moon is trying to tell you until you see it played out by someone else.
The solution to avoiding these awful people seems simple: get past the issue they’re performing for you, and they’ll get off the stage. One way to do that is to simply grit your teeth, tell them off, and then develop some armor that lets you deflect future awful people. But then you’re covered with armor. And that makes you less flexible, and less available for the good clients as well."
"We step out onto the precipice at this New Moon. Where you feel trapped, you will find yourself yearning to wriggle free. But you don’t have to firebomb your entire life and start over. For most of us, it will be enough to approach the ticking time bombs in our lives cautiously and disarm them with quiet disclosures to the right people and a step, however tentative, in another direction. Ask: Where can you be more truthful, to yourself and to others? What are the secrets and fears that are preventing you from living authentically?
The one thing you can’t do is ignore the untamed animal within you that demands adventure and freedom. If you tie it up too tightly, it will simply bide its time until one day, a door will be left open or a loose screen can be pried away just enough so that you are able to escape. If that time has come, and you are on the verge of throwing away something very important, just be absolutely certain that there is no other choice. Some words can’t be taken back. Some actions are irrevocable. There are things out there that can bite you—and some cats don’t make it back home."
I keep finding good stuff!
Stuff from the April 25 eclipse:
This last one reminds me of the Michael Lutin eclipse pattern of 2013 message. Which I ordered, but I suspect I'd get in trouble for talking about online since it's for pay. This is a lulu enough for me (and my mom, who is also having an eclipse around her birthday... FUN TIMES THIS YEAR YOU GUYS) that I paid up and...well, I would say that if you're a Taurus or Scorpio or rising of either, or have both like I do, go get it. It's very good relationship-y talk along the lines of SunShines. I'd like to note that he doesn't even put anything up for the upcoming week this week (not a permalink) EXCEPT for that message....which is frightening.
On another note, here's a post on Beltane for tomorrow. Which is also very heavily reminding me of the Lutin message:
"Heavy energy out there. All that fixed earth Taurus. It’s easy to get bogged down. And to give up.
You know that’s Shadow Taurus, right? Giving up. Withdrawing. Isolating. Shutting down. It’s a survival instinct, gone wrong. If you’re feeling less than enthused, this could be why.
But this is still a fertile season. Taurus is also about new growth. Yes, even with the current opposition from Saturn in Scorpio.
The evening of April 30th to May 1st is Beltane, a fertility festival. Even if you don’t feel like celebrating, the wheel of the year continues to turn. The energy is potent right now for creating something new. Saturn’s limits may narrow the scope, but there’s still something to work with. The pulse of new life is happening, and it’s bigger than you. This is encouraging, because it means there’s always hope, no matter how insurmountable your problems are. Not that your problems aren’t valid, but there’s always something more to reach for.
Remember, efforts made in Taurus will be slooow. You may have to push a bit harder, be a bit more patient, take things one day at a time."
Next, posting for the May 9 eclipse:
Also, the monthly horoscopes:
"Taurus (April 19-May 20)
You are surrounded on all sides by potential, and by people who believe in you. Yet you may have an ominous feeling, as if something is brewing that you don’t understand and cannot discern clearly. Yet consider all that you’ve learned about yourself the past few weeks — how many things you would not necessarily have considered, and were probably not expecting. These have worked out well, and many situations are still developing. The ominous feeling is an eclipse of the Sun in your sign on May 9. This is profoundly meaningful astrology that will deliver a clear message to you. You may not be certain if it’s a sign from the distant past or something entirely new; in a way, both are true. What this eclipse signals is a kind of growth checkpoint. There are two questions that I see. One is: what do you ‘take on’ when you engage with someone in an intimate relationship? There’s something suggesting that you become like that person, at least a little, and I suggest that you decide consciously the extent you want to do this. Another image in the chart involves your father, and your tendency to want to live up to what you perceived as his expectations of you, or his image of you. It’s more likely that your highest vision of yourself would take you in another direction entirely. It will help if you notice this negotiation process with full awareness rather than having it run in the background."
"Yet you may have an ominous feeling, as if something is brewing that you don’t understand and cannot discern clearly. Yet consider all that you’ve learned about yourself the past few weeks — how many things you would not necessarily have considered, and were probably not expecting. These have worked out well, and many situations are still developing. The ominous feeling is an eclipse of the Sun in your sign on May 9. This is profoundly meaningful astrology that will deliver a clear message to you. You may not be certain if it’s a sign from the distant past or something entirely new; in a way, both are true."
That has definitely happened. And seriously, JUST WAITING ON THAT SIGN THERE!
"Scorpio (Oct. 23-Nov. 22)
To what extent are you invested in a close partner, and have you considered whether you might be over-invested? This isn’t necessarily an easy question, though you may be getting some new information on this topic in the near future. This is, however, not a new story. Indeed, it’s the latest step in the process of your rewriting what may be a very old story, and that relates to certain fixed patterns of how you tend to think of yourself, your relationship partners and your mutual role in one another’s lives. This question is valid whether or not you currently are with a partner. The underlying material remains the same. The question gets more relevance if you tend to repeat patterns in your relationships. It gets even more relevance if you tend to come up against certain emotional issues and then skip them over, expecting a different result from last time. The current astrology is, to use a strong word, demanding that you be real with yourself. You know it’s also time for you to be relating to others on real terms, and call nothing less than that intimacy. I know there is a temptation to have the pleasure, security and emotional contact of relationships without taking the risk of vulnerability. Yet it’s never long before this runs out. If you’re someone who does value depth and intimacy and who takes emotional risks, the next few weeks promise to be a daring, meaningful and beautiful time in your life."
Okay, with all of this prediction stuff? If I continue to be immune to the charms of everyone even after this year, I need to just freaking shoot myself because that means ain't nothing gonna move me :P
"Lately, I've encountered a certain intensity fatigue. Call it a hazard of my profession, but how many times can one trot an article that describes one more 'especially intense week or two ahead' and not begin to feel like you're just repeating the same banal sentiments over and over again ad nauseum? I proudly do the best I can to actually provide distinct enough descriptions that help qualitatively distinguish between the myriad forms of intensity we might encounter at a given time. Still, due to the intense overall flavor of this era—so markedly infused with this uncommon revolutionary Uranus/Pluto unrest-instability-and-discomfort energy—I could probably phone in one generic essay after another that basically says, 'Shit's intense, dude!' and then head out for an artisanal pizza and some locally-crafted microbrew. I'm forced to up my writerly game."
"Apocalypse can also be far more subtle than that, more interesting, more messy, perhaps even more personally charged. And as with any sort of collective vibrational hump day, it is what you make of it."
"It occurred to me the other evening, watching “Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer” for maybe the 40th time, how many of the stories we enjoy revisiting each year during December – the month when the Sun moves through Sagittarius – are tales of heroic journeys. Rudolph hits the road with his fellow misfit, Hermey the Elf, in search of a place where they fit in. The three wise men embark on the ultimate road trip, with only a star to lead them to the newborn savior. George Bailey and Clarence, and Ebeneezer Scrooge and his ghostly tour guides, travel to alternate universes to better grasp the importance of a single human life.
For each of us, Sagittarius represents our own Hero’s Journey, complete with tortuous paths, ordeals and rewards, and the promise of redemption. We recognize ourselves in Rudolph, in George, and even in poor old Scrooge. We understand their dissatisfaction and despair, and the feeling that there’s no better way to reboot our lives than to launch ourselves into the vast unknown. We know the fear of failure and the sadness of feeling like a stranger, and we know that there are times in life when proving that we can overcome that fear and sadness is exactly what we need in order to feel truly alive."