"A commenter on this blog referred to the “awful silence” that we’re sometimes confronted with when seeking guidance from the Universe. I’m sure you’ve been there: things are abysmal, you reach out to your Higher Power, and there’s nothing. No message, no hint that things will improve. Nothing.
Or, you’re looking for some sign to point you in the right direction. When there’s thunderous silence in response, it can make you question everything. Welcome to your dark night of the soul, whether or not you believe in God.
I’m not going to pretend that I have the inside track on why this happens. I don’t. I suppose I can say it’s all part or the “learning process,” but sometimes that process is so harsh that it seems unfair. Is there really no gentler way to learn and grow? Regardless, it’s happened to me at various times, and my personal opinion is (and this really is just my opinion):
- the blind spot around what’s happening is part of someone else’s karma/evolutionary path (if the issue involves another person) OR
- I’m not meant to know why this is happening
Both of these approaches involve giving up the control of figuring it out. Because there are times when you will never figure it out. Sometimes you don’t have to know, you just have to keep moving forward, one step at a time."
When Chiron and the Sun unite in Pisces, there’s a blend of ego and failure, life force and wounding. The Sun flares up and dies, then flares up again. What hurts is in the spotlight, and so is the current of dissolution that swirls around it.
This can go either way. You become bitter and victimized by what you can’t achieve, and drown in your sorrows. Or, you gain compassion and wisdom through your failures/wounds, and transcend (Pisces) the typical definition of what you “should” do. The highest use of Chiron’s energy is helping others in the area that you struggle with. But not everyone wants to be a teacher (although if Chiron is emphasized in your chart, you are meant to guide others, via the house/sign that Chiron occupies).
But regarding this conjunction, if it’s hitting a planet/point in your chart, you may simply be confronted with an area where you can’t succeed in the usual way. Chiron is the outsider, as much of a rebel as Aquarius. But Chiron’s rebellion isn’t based on breaking rules. The rules break Chiron, and Chiron’s comeback is the alternative healing path, or the enhanced wisdom of hard experience. Transiting Chiron rubs you raw, so you feel insecure or victimized. Pay attention to that feeling, because it’s your conduit to something greater. Greater compassion, patience or understanding. Perhaps a deeper relationship with someone. Chiron adds softness to the Sun’s pure ego energy, and the Sun illuminates what Chiron can do for you."
"Since 2012 your ruling planet, Pluto, has been a key player in major planet action that indicated deep, inescapable, uncontrollable, change and transformation. You’ve endured and accepted many challenging circumstances that you couldn’t turn around directly and it was only by changing your attitude, perspective or approach that you found your place in the situation. Not easy, but look at the self-transformation you’ve achieved in that time; a proper make-over. This month is the final chapter in all this, so don’t hold back. Then events around an amazing new moon eclipse on the 20th are all about the next step, of new beginnings with long-term impact."
Um....I kinda doubt I've transformed much. Or enough.
"Mars/Uranus in your sector of routine (square Pluto in your communication sector) suggests that sudden actions/announcements at work, or a surprising health diagnosis, could throw you into overdrive. As abrupt as this may be, know that it’s part of a longer-term trend that the Uranus/Pluto square has been initiating. It may be time to confront a medical reality, or move on from a job/obligation that’s no longer part of your future. Jupiter’s expansive energy strongly suggests that any changes are part of a bigger, brighter future, especially if a new career goal is involved.
Mercury’s move into your sector of self-expression, and its square to Saturn Rx in your security sector, urges you to take stock of money and/or the realities of what you desire, even as you’re jumping forward. It’s doable, but you may need to look more closely at a financial issue (budgeting, saving).
Uranus/Pluto square’s final changes: work routines, co-worker relationships, health, obligations
Delays/refocusing: earned money, creative goals, discipline with resources"
I have the wrong gender for this, but otherwise I have both of these and relate.
It's a hard knocks day on the blog, apparently.
"Hard aspects between his Moon and Saturn indicate a loyalty to his mother, underscored by the burden of that loyalty. She may have been unwilling or unable to provide complete nurturing, so he learned that it wasn’t acceptable to need the comfort and security that every child is entitled to. At the same time, she may have depended on him for more than a child is meant to provide. It’s possible that he is still responsible for her in some way."
"I see this a lot in the behavior patterns of those with Saturn retrograde—they are unsure about themselves, unsure about the whole boundary issue thing, unsure about how much they should do for others, and when to say no. They can get imposed on."
Yeah, I have Saturn retrograde and I totally fit this description. If I had a dollar for every time someone gave me the boundaries lecture.... to which I say, so what do you do with someone who doesn't respect boundaries even when you are screaming at them to stop for months on end?
You kind of learn that you can't stop someone who wants to keep coming, that's what. You learn that "boundaries" don't matter and aren't respected, so why waste your breath and time trying to stop a bulldozer?
"A good example of how Saturn retrograde works and how it doesn’t is seen in the chart of a woman with Saturn rising and direct. When she was a young child she clearly understood boundaries. She was quiet in school and never caused any trouble at all. The class bully got in back of her in line one day on the way to the cafeteria and made a big mistake. He grabbed her braids and started yanking her head. She spun around without a word, swung on him, and bloodied his nose. Then, still without a word, she turned back and resumed walking. He, on the other hand, squawked loudly, crying that he’d been mortally injured.
This is not the behavior of a retrograde Saturn child. A Saturn retrograde child might have gotten upset but would probably immediately appeal to the teacher (the authority figure) for help and expect the teacher to handle the issue.
Retrograde Saturns are sometimes picked on because they aren’t sure if they should defend themselves or if they have the right to do so, and if so, how far they can go.
A direct Saturn child has no problem with those concerns at all. The line was crossed. Period.
Retrograde Saturn children may not know where the line is."
Now this hits home because I was a bullied child (I know, you're so shocked to hear it) and I had no effing idea how to deal with it. I didn't tattle to a teacher or my parents or anybody. I was the one that got in trouble for being bullied, of course, because it was my fault for oh, existing or something. Oh, excuse me, existing while shy because they held me back a year for being socially undeveloped. By all means, explain to me how one socially develops when every other kid they know hates them.
And another thought: it's the boundaries issue again. You learn early on that you can't stop a bully, and other people don't give a shit about stopping a bully for you, so...that's just what is going to happen to you.
In the incredibly unlikely event that I'd ever have children, I would home school them or find a tutor or a home school program (they exist where I live) and keep them the hell away from other children as long as I could. Any kid I'd have would be instabait.
"The retrograde condition almost always points to difficulty with the rules of life, for one reason or another. Women with this position may find themselves seeking parental approval endlessly, working harder than necessary, longer hours, never saying No when asked to do the extra job or assume the added responsibility. Sometimes this develops excessive deference to men. They can
wear themselves out this way and never really get either approval or credit for all that effort. I have been amazed at how many Saturn retrograde women are in support roles on the job. This is Saturn duty carried to an extreme.
Sometimes they are denied the authority to do their jobs or to obtain jobs that have authority because they are seen as soft or as supporters, not leaders, by management. They try very hard to fit whatever role management wants and be seen as team players. This can be undermined by a poorly placed Saturn. Some women eventually just decide they don’t want the aggravation of it all. They may blame themselves unduly for their failures. "
Hm, yeah, this is fairly close to my job. I don't want to be a leader (oh god no), but I have a lot of issues with trying to fit what is wanted of me and then I'm always told that no matter what I try I'm still not what they want. Sigh.
Saturn retrograde sucks, in case you couldn't tell!
"Saturn’s sign in your birth chart seems to indicate the qualities that make people take you seriously. They are the qualities from which you derive your authority. They are what make others a little nervous at the thought of falling short of your expectations. And they are the qualities for which you are judged most harshly if you don’t act with integrity."
This is cool.
"One of the ironies of relationships is their success depends on your ability to not have a relationship. While mastering the art of intimacy is essential, you need to be comfortable with yourself first. This demands a level of healthy independence, and how you deal with being alone is clearly indicated in your chart. If the thought of not having a partner drives you to make desperate choices, this will impact the quality of your relationships. But if you’re so terrified of getting close to someone that you construct emotional walls, this will impact your love life as well. True security consists of accepting the fact that you are just fine as you are, single or paired up.
Even though Taurus is ruled by Venus, relationship planets in this sign can create a high level of self-sufficiency in a partnership. You’re grounded in the sense that you have everything you need within you. If you’re single and looking, Taurus can manifest extreme patience, because you’re concerned with quality over quantity. You can stubbornly wait for years (if need be) for the right person. Of course, if this energy is overdone, it can stagnate into the eternal bachelor/bachelorette who hunkers down fearfully, because inviting someone in would mean changing your routine."
Incidentally, I introduced another Scorpio I know to this site last night. He got all excited. I...did not so much.
This year promises so much acclaim in your career! You will see the truth of this on March 3, when Jupiter (good fortune), now in your fame and achievement sector, receives a rare aspect from Uranus, planet of surprise, in your workaday project sector. When news comes, it will arrive quickly and be completely unexpected, arriving like a lightning bolt! Expect a generous reward for all the superior performance you've put in. The harder and smarter you worked, the bigger your reward will be now.
Not only did this not happen, I am in the doghouse. Uh...NOPE.
I did see an offer for free career counseling that day and e-mailed about that, but we'll see.
A few days later, March 10, Mars will send glittering beams to Jupiter from your assignment house, so clearly the work you've done and work you will be assigned in March will lead you up the ladder of success. August will be another big month for career news, so keep putting the pedal to the metal so you can rack up victories before Jupiter departs to Virgo, August 11. Once good fortune Jupiter leaves your career sector on that date, he will not be back for twelve years. While you will continue to climb the ladder of success, you won't have the glittering conditions you do now - make the most of them.
Against all this, in the background, a golden triangle
To quote the Scorpio buddy: "a golden triangle? Really?" "I don't think so," I said. "Probably a metaphor."
will appear in the heavens in March, linking your work projects (which should be quite divine now), your reputation and status (which is climbing by the minute), AND your earned income. Although employers seem to be tight fisted and unwilling to part with generous salaries, this month you seem to be persuasive enough to get your due. You can show VIPs that a lesser talent would not be able to fulfill the vast requirements of the position in the way you can do. Paying you more, in the big picture, would actually save the company money, for paying people who can't produce would be throwing money away. Even if the lower paid workers can produce, it would take an inexperienced person double the time to get the work done. This month you appear to be on top of your game and in line for the top job AND the right salary.
That would be nice, but I will not hold my breath.
You may encounter only one day that may give you pause - March 15 - when Pluto, your ruler, will be in sharp odds with Uranus. A writing assignment or contract you are drafting for a client or proposed partner may not bring accord, so avoid this day and stay to yourself.
Which I can probably do very nicely on a Sunday. Though I'm still trying to figure out how one avoids an entire DAY.
Pluto's involvement suggests others will use their power and authority to get their way, and Uranus' involvement will bring an unexpected twist, but not necessarily the one you want. You'll have to stay on your toes on March 15, and even if you hide under the bed, aspects like this have a way of finding you. You are shrewd and resourceful, so stay confident. If anyone can handle a difficult person, it's you.
So if difficult aspects find me under the bed, how can I avoid them?
You need a fun social life, and the universe agrees. Send your RSVP to a party you may be invited to or a friend's offer to gather up the gang for a great dinner within four days of the full moon in Virgo, March 5.
Okay, THIS IS ACTUALLY HAPPENING on the 7th. With RSVP and everything. Dinner and dancing. Woot! So something worked out!
Alternatively, you may be attending a friend's wedding, and if so, you must go! Saturn will support this full moon, so among the people you meet, you may make a friend that will remain in your life a very long time.
That would be nice.
Group and community activities are also favored in the first ten days of March, so if you plan to give a charity event or help a humanitarian cause that you feel strongly about, as a committee chairman, give it all you have to give, for it will be quite a success.
*shrug* Don't really feel strongly about any charity.
An even bigger event is about to take place in your love life, with the solar eclipse, March 20. This will be a new moon on steroids, powerful and giving, and could help you find your one true love, or draw you closer to someone you've been dating. Neptune will fall close to this new moon, showering it with inspiration. Neptune will be beautifully angled to Jupiter and Saturn, giving you a sense of security and have you enthusiastic about your future together. If you are coupled up and hope for a baby, this same new moon could summon the stork.
Scorpio pal was excited about this. But I'm me.
Everything about this eclipse will be positive. Even at work, you may be approved for a highly creative project that allows you to show off the full range of your talents. (Your fifth house of love and children also governs your creativity, as this house covers the birth of all new forms.) Committed couples will find their relationship proceeds smoothly, as Venus will enter your relationship / marriage house on March 17 to stay until April 11, and this month send sweet vibrations to Neptune in romantic Pisces.