"She’s drawn to a new life, but committing to it means losing everything she has; remaining in the old one makes every kind of sense intellectually, but is emotionally untenable. There is little point trying to offer advice to someone in such a situation. It would be like telling a mouse that it needs to make a decision about whether to leave its trap.
Technically, it’s a New Moon in Aquarius, a sign as fixed and stubborn as they come, and perhaps you’re living a life that is technically much the same as it’s been for ages. But it’s a New Moon with one foot, or maybe two, wiggling their toes in Pisces’ waters. You might find yourself wondering what it would be like to grab for two lives with both hands, instead of settling for just one. Wondering whether you could pull it off, get away with it.
But I don’t know anyone who has, not really. Lives are filled with promises we make to ourselves, our loved ones, society. We are free to renegotiate them at any time, if we are willing to do so with honesty and honor and to accept the consequences. It can be so difficult to do that; but it we don’t, it’s not our loved ones or society holding us prisoner.
At this New Moon, I imagine some of us are caught up in that cusp, children hanging tightly to the edge of the swimming pool, afraid to let ourselves drift into deeper waters, however tempting they are, however seductive their influence. We imagine we could manage it if we were willing to dog-paddle vigorously enough, or if we could trust ourselves to simply relax and float. But we’re not sure of the water, not quite yet. It looks lovely on the surface, but we know that there may be dangers waiting for us over in the deep end. Maybe, we think, it’s better here, holding on to what is sure and solid, even if it’s sort of killing us."