Saturn Return Can Bite Me

Moon-Saturn--this stuff is so true

"Adrian Ross Duncan describes the tremendous need inside the Moon/Saturn person. When they finally decide that it’s safe to unlock Saturn’s iron cage, a clingy, vulnerable person jumps out. Suddenly, they demand constant reassurance. They appear to need (Moon) more support than anyone can provide. If the Moon/Saturn person receives a whiff of hesitation from their partner, they will interpret this as rejection. The cage door slams shut, and the Moon/Saturn person abruptly withdraws, becoming Mr. or Mrs. Cool once again."

Oh lord, this describes me and my mother in a nutshell.

Saturn in Scorpio: this one worries me

As well it should, I suppose.

• Be prepared to lose something, even if it’s just your sense of control. Saturn will confront you with fears of loss, abandonment, powerlessness and betrayal. Note that the anticipation may be greater than the actual loss.
• Focus on what’s left. What can you do to heal yourself? How can you make the situation work for you? Hint: it will not involve obsessing over what you no longer have.
• Confront what scares you. This could involve deep intimacy, sharing and merging your resources (financial and emotional).
• Identify energy that you’ve directed towards stalking, controlling, manipulating or holding grudges.  Take all that energy and point it in a direction that is brand new and does not involve control over someone else.

Saturn in Libra: the silence continues

Continued from here and here.

Just when you thought it was safe to go back in the water...well, apparently not.

I was pleased to see that John Mayer finally got to release his album (really nice steampunk cover on it too, that's like the prettiest steampunk-y thing I've ever seen) and was going back on tour. And interestingly enough, the time on the clock on the album cover, plus the album title, makes me wonder if he snuck his birth time in there. Would make him a double Sadge in addition to the tons of Libra if it's in the morning, which seems more likely because then he'd have a 10th house Libra stellium and whopping career power.

But it seemed a little tentative somehow, what with the short tour booking...and yeah. Bummer. And oh look, retrograde Saturn going back over the end of the sign again and kicking his sun once again, and then starting all over again in June..ouch.

I was hoping he'd get all fixed up sooner than by the time Saturn leaves Libra in October, but...I guess not? Maybe the poor dude has to go through the whole period of time quiet before he can finally resurface for good. I hope he can finally effing do that sometime.

In other folks-with-Libra news, my aforementioned double Libra friend got in a whopping bus accident while on vacation in December and has been on medical leave for the winter duration. She seems mostly okay, all things considered, but then there's the joys of PTSD and finding a new therapist. So she's having not the best time either. Poor Libras. I want to start a "Save the Libras!" campaign...The other Libra people I know continue to be out of touch, distant, or in the same crap as ever. 

Though the double Libra saw an astrologer recently and got whopping good predictions for her life having massive good change a year and a half from now. As in "right now you're in a dead period of time, but in 3 years you won't recognize your life." Lucky girl. I'd like to get some kind of prediction like that for myself, but I suspect if I ever got a full reading from a pro, mine would not be cheerful and rosy. Which is pretty much why I try to DIY it here.

 

How to deal with Mars/Saturn

"She’s got to find expression for that opposition, at work most likely, and then not bring the work home."

"Are you old enough to beg for love?"

First I saw this post:

"I had a new Venus square Saturn thought the other day as I was reading a list of what Saturn rules and Saturn rules beggars among many other things and I thought: AHA! Venus Saturn must beg for love. Like the dog she (or he) is

Begging leads one to embarrassment which leads one to shame which leads one to… well, it just goes on and on. Rejection, self-loathing."

I would not argue with this. Asking = embarrassment = rejection = shame that you even asked in the first place. This is why I don't flirt or show any interest in a guy whatsoever on the extremely rare occasions that I have any. I will ignore him entirely if he doesn't show interest on his own these days. I have been completely repulsed by certain people having interest in me in that way at times, I am aware that I am not most people's cup of tea, and I don't want to make anyone else have that feeling of UGH OH GOD NOT YOU WHY IS THE BIGGEST CREEP IN THE ROOM THE ONLY ONE WHO LIKEY-LIKES ME, about me. God, no.

Don't get me wrong, way back in the dark ages when I used to date, even the blind chicken picked up a grain of corn now and then. But they're gonna have to go first about it. Which most dudes will do regardless of your interest anyway, right?

I was listening to Janelle Monae's "Many Moons" the other day and the above lyrics popped into my head while reading this post. I then went and looked up her birthday (wow, that girl is really super-Sag-stellium), and she has a Venus/Saturn conjunction. I got all smug at myself for pinning that down...then I looked at the actual lyrics and they are "Are you bold enough to reach for love."

Uh...

Yeah.

Saturn in Libra at the last degree

Interesting post for those with planets in Libra.

How to cope with your current crazy

Medusa has some interesting tips.

"* Look to the house with Taurus on the Cusp and note how you HAVE done pretty damn well there. Congratulate yourself and know that area of life is going to get even better by May 2012.

* Check the bit of your chart with late Libra, where Saturn lurks and do something rigid, linear and planned there.  Instant angst relief.

* Where you have early Aries, cut yourself a LOT of slack. Don’t try to be ‘straight’ in this regard. Individuate. Grok that the irritation/slo-mo sensation now is actually your helpful omen as to where/how you want to be. It speeds up real soon."

The Saturn Mastery Group

"Note: Saturn is from 22 Libra to 29 Libra until October 2012. So you’re in our club for SURE if you have anything in the late degrees of Libra and then we’ll also take you if you’ve got anything in late Aries, Capricorn or Cancer-Kataka."

Seriously, this is interesting hardcore stuff for y'all.

Saturn in Libra: the sound of silence

So according to the Internets, the aforementioned John Mayer had surgery on his throat yesterday. Because I wondered about the whole transit thing, I looked up the chart transits. Yesterday, transiting Saturn was conjunct his natal Mercury at 20 degrees Libra, with the sun coming up right after that. Transiting Mercury is also exactly conjunct his natal Uranus in Scorpio at 10 degrees. Since Mercury rules speech and Uranus is the higher octave of Mercury, I get the sense that it's a double whopping silencing there with all of that. And sure enough, the dude has to stay silent for a least a month or more. The lesson continues. 

You'd think that with Taurus ruling the throat and whatnot, that might be more prominent in the chart, but Jupiter in Taurus isn't really setting anything major off here, so...I guess not. I'm not an expert in medical astrology, though this link points out that Libra might have throat issues as well.  I dunno, I feel like Mercury is the significant point here anyway.

On a related note (I think I was thinking of this link last time and then was too lazy to dig it up), this post kind of reminds me of this situation. I think I have to agree with this post that it's hell to be a modern-day Libra. Maybe we need to start a "Save the Libras!" movement or something, hah.

Thinking of the Libras folks in my life right now, my double Libra friend with a birthday the day after his is traveling the world right now, so Saturn's hitting her sun in the first house. I wonder how she's doing. Another friend seems to have done a disappearing act, but since she's pretty intermittent on contact, I guess that's not surprising. And my Libra rising friend is about to have Saturn hitting her ascendant...and she seems to have an impending marital showdown likely to go on this weekend for her Libra kid's birthday. HOO BOY. Looking at her chart, she's also got Pluto conjunct her natal Jupiter/Venus conjunction, transiting Neptune and Chiron conjunct her natal Chiron, and transiting moon and Mars approaching her natal Uranus. I'm going to be rooting for some transformational (if painful) moment that frees her from the situation to happen. Soon. Please.

While I'm at it, here's a few links on Saturn transits for those of you with these issues going on right now:

• Bob Marks
• Cafe Astrology

Love is all around, except for me.

From this week's Aquarium Age:

Listen closely and you'll hear the planets chanting: "All relationships, all the time." Listen even more closely and you'll hear yourself or those you love groaning from the intensity of non-stop interactions, many of which require a Zen-like devotion to staying in the moment. And this relationship cycle isn't only about romantic liaisons. Associations of every ilk are at center stage, and because relationships are one of the most, if not the most important areas of life, more than a few of us are exhausted from the rigors of conscious relating — even those who already know how much work it takes to integrate awareness and compassion into action. There will also be plenty of unconscious interactions to challenge body, mind, heart, and soul, but as we know from experience, most situations can be transformed by the willingness to grow.

Does anyone reading this ever feel like you must be out of sync with the universe? Because man, relationships aren't even a factor in my life right now. Not that I ever have any romantic issues even if Saturn and all the other planets are in Libra right now, but even friends and relatives are on the "mostly AWOL" status. Even my mom is too occupied with watching television (thank god) to pester me repeatedly like usual. (Dear TV Gods: thank you for putting shows my mother watches on during her favorite times to all.) Seriously, if I wanted people to hang out with, I couldn't get 'em right now.