Saturn Return Can Bite Me

I haven't seen a month this clear in, I can't remember

All Of May, 2024 Looks GREAT!!! No doom to peddle!!

The red string of fate

I love this post. Even though I don't have a red string person.

2024 birthday post

It's a full moon birthday!

I don't even know what to make of this one. Sigh. Though I desperately need luck in my work sector. 

• canoe.com: "Happy Birthday: Focus on the present and finishing what you start. It’s what you do that counts. Replace pressure with action, and you’ll solve problems without drama. Refrain from relying on others when you can get things done yourself. The more indispensable you are, the more confident you’ll appear. The trick is to maintain a steady, productive pace throughout the year. Your numbers are 4, 12, 24, 26, 35, 43, 47." 
• Georgia Nicols: "You are devoted, loyal, generous and warm hearted, which is why you are always ready to help others. This is the final year of a nine-year cycle for you, which means it's time to let go of people, places and things that have been holding you back." 
• horoscope.com:  "Look forward to an active time with perhaps many short trips for business, pleasure, or family visits. If you aren't always up for so much travel, you'll still return to your own cozy home and circle of friends. Find extra good luck and perhaps some financial benefit from going out and meeting the world head-on, especially in July. Be pleasant, practical, and safe, and come back with a fresh new outlook. If travel doesn't materialize in January, the world may come to you. Watch for something unexpected and clever in the last month. Have a dream-filled, exciting year!
• cafeastrology.com: 

"You are a determined person, and you intuitively know that, with patience, you can accomplish anything you set out to do. You easily earn respect from others due in part to your regal manner. Your family is extremely important to you, and many of your values are pretty traditional, which keeps you grounded and responsible. However, you are unafraid of embracing the new, even if you do so slowly.

A Full Moon in your Solar Return chart marks this as a year of great personal significance, when major new beginnings, endings, and activities occur. This period is the culmination of a stage of personal growth and development. Events occurring this year may bring various developments in your emotional, psychological, or spiritual life over the past several years to a head. Relationships are especially important. There can be increased activity in your professional and public life, causing a conflict with your domestic and personal goals.

There is little moderation in your life this year! Connections are made or ended, or your job focus may change as one focus fades to make way for a new direction. A project could complete and bear fruit."

Well, I'm being forced to change jobs this year--very soon, I'm waiting on a final offer from the one job offer I got, that I don't want--next week. I have to get out of my current one by the end of July, and all jobs in my area are being shut down due to budget cuts any minute now (and the ones I've applied for at my current org already got budget cut), so....fuck. 

"Your enthusiasm is infectious and you are able to motivate and inspire others with your vision and optimism in the year ahead.

Fortunately, bursts of creativity and energy emerge at seemingly perfect times this year, and they help you further your goals. Healthy risk-taking is likely this year, as you are more able to spot an opportunity when you see one. It is easier than usual to break free from habits that have previously held you back from going after what you want in life.

You might discover new and improved ways of relating, nurturing, and healing during this period. There can be a stronger sense of freedom and encouragement on the home front or in your domestic world.

Relationships are likely to go through healing. Warmth and commitment can be satisfying this year! You’re also bound to find new and unique ways of making money."

Since the new job is a huge pay cut and I'm not allowed to have side gigs, I don't think so here. 

You are taking more pride in your relationships this year, and it’s a good time to strengthen and support others, as well as to build trust. This can be a pleasantly ambitious period.

It’s a potentially excellent period for romantic or creative pursuits. Good results in competition can also figure strongly. You’re passionate and ready to enjoy life more fully. It can be a time of especially fruitful projects.

It can be a time when you can be putting your faith and heart into a cause, your loved ones, or a pet project. You’re particularly generous with your time and energy. There can be very significant and positive developments in health, or with family and home matters.

A Mars-Jupiter influence in your Solar Return chart infuses the year with an enterprising spirit. This is a strong aspect for professional as well as personal opportunities. Your faith in your ability to produce and to win takes you places you perhaps never imagined. There can be positive outcomes in competitive activities, including sports and business, for example. You are more courageous about discovering the right activities for you, and you’re especially ready to take on a challenge.

The period ahead favors dancing, swimming, photography, arts, and entertainment. If you are an artist, this could be an especially inspired, imaginative, and productive year. Pay attention to your gut feelings, which will, more often than not, give you valuable information. You seem to have a strong sense of trends.

Your interests are changing in pleasant ways. New ideas, studies, topics, or pursuits can be most enjoyable to explore.

Summary:

The year ahead is one of enthusiasm and initiative. The changes the year brings to your personality can be important and uplifting. Others recognize and appreciate your natural charm and unique qualities. Friendships and interests are notable and diverse.

2024 is a Number Nine year for you. Ruled by Mars. This is a year of completion and transition. It is a time when we need to let go of things that no longer serve their purpose, and hold on to things that have a future. It is a time of cleaning out dead wood, not necessarily for new beginnings. It can be a time when a burden has been taken off your shoulders, and it can be a year of giving of yourself. Advice - let go of things that are holding you back, give of yourself, and express your sympathetic, compassionate side.

See above job commentary.

2025 will be a Number One year for you. Ruled by the Sun. This is a year of action. The seeds you plant now, you will reap later. Others might find you less sociable, as you are busier than ever and you focus on your activities and your needs. Still, you are outgoing and your initiative is stronger than ever. Advice - Stand alone, take action, start fresh, express independence.

Just for a lack of fun, let's look at last year's horoscopes and see how that went: 

Expect a promotion, an award or kudos of some kind.

Work you have done in the past begins to pay off – not necessarily in dramatic ways, but in small, measurable ways. You may be recognized or rewarded in some way for the efforts you put forth. Because you project a more responsible and credible image, people in authority are more inclined to appreciate you and recognize your work.

Nope, I got a campaign to get me punished and fired instead.

If you're solitary, brace yourself for a charming but demanding potential love interest. 

You could be lucky in love or find the year particularly rewarding for social activity or simply enjoying life more fully. There can be romantic joy, drawing honors or recognition to you, prosperity in creative or guidance fields, and some success with speculation.

Nope.

You have a stronger focus on, and dedication to, work in the period ahead and can make significant headway in specific areas this year. You’re likely to feel a strong sense of direction and purpose.

See above.

It’s also a strong year for making connections, communicating, reaching out, and learning many useful tidbits.

This actually happened.

Diagnosis difficulties

I read this post about people who have a hard time getting diagnosed with anything and IMMEDIATELY thought of a friend of mine who has this issue. I asked what her birth time is and she didn't know exactly other than somewhere in the 4-5-ish a.m. time period. If she's born around 5:45, then hoo boy, does this apply to her. 

Saturn Return is hitting songs again

What’s a Saturn return — and why are our favorite pop stars singing about it? The astrological phenomenon namechecked in new songs from Ariana Grande, Kacey Musgraves, and SZA, explained.

Meanwhile, I am in the also-mentioned-in-article Midlife Crisis phase of Saturn opposition, so I haven't felt like posting here for awhile. 

Another doom eclipse

I haven't updated here in awhile--in all honesty, my life is a nightmare right now and I'm losing faith in everything spiritually because nothing is working.

I am just noting that I've got another eclipse on my sun in seventh right now and I suppose that will be something awful as well. 

I can't take any more and it's only going to get worse from here on in. 

Never tried this, but here's an article on it.

NYT: Why Did I Spend My Last Birthday Alone in Alaska? Ask My Astrologer.

2023 birthday post

• canoe.com: "It's what you do that counts this year. Actions and transparency will pay off and encourage others to pitch in and help. Opportunities may not be easy to find, but dedication to what makes you feel passionate and inspired will develop into something worthwhile. Don't be afraid to make a last-minute change. Let your instincts lead the way. Your numbers are 3, 15, 24, 26, 32, 43, 48. Birthday Baby: You are forceful, helpful and courageous. You are proactive and unpredictable."
• Georgia Nicols: "You're relaxed, you're practical, and you're entertaining. You put your own personal touch on things. This is a wonderful year for you because you will receive acknowledgement and respect from your peers. Expect a promotion, an award or kudos of some kind. Bravo!" (LOL NEVER GONNA HAPPEN.)
• horoscope.com "There's nothing like romantic tension to enliven an otherwise peaceful year. If you have a partner, prepare for some dissatisfaction halfway through the year. If you're solitary, brace yourself for a charming but demanding potential love interest. The confusion won't peak until December, when fantasies and daydreams run wild, possibly from rumors of an office romance. A lot of it is imagination, but imagination can sometimes harm. Listen to your head and heart, and be kind. This can be the stuff of romantic comedy - they have happy endings. Treat everyone gently - see how clever and lucky you look!" None of that sounds likely, but another love interest is why I read these things.

Less and less places doing "if today is your birthday" posts, darn it.

Cafe Astrology:

You are a determined person, and you intuitively know that, with patience, you can accomplish anything you set out to do. You easily earn respect from others due in part to your regal manner. Your family is extremely important to you, and many of your values are pretty traditional, which keeps you grounded and responsible. However, you are unafraid of embracing the new, even if you do so slowly.

You have a stronger focus on, and dedication to, work in the period ahead and can make significant headway in specific areas this year. You’re likely to feel a strong sense of direction and purpose.

It’s also a strong year for making connections, communicating, reaching out, and learning many useful tidbits.

Fortunately, you benefit from a supportive transit from Saturn to your Sun, and this can help stabilize key areas of your life. You are practical in your choices in certain areas of your life, keeping your feet on the ground and paying attention to, and honoring, tradition as well as tried-and-true methods. You have the power of practicality, realism, and caution on your side during this period.

Work you have done in the past begins to pay off – not necessarily in dramatic ways, but in small, measurable ways. You may be recognized or rewarded in some way for the efforts you put forth. Because you project a more responsible and credible image, people in authority are more inclined to appreciate you and recognize your work.

This is a year in which you put your life in order in some significant manner. Improved concentration, a more realistic outlook, and a practical awareness of the limits of time all help you to make steady progress, particularly in your career. Your concern for your future this year is stronger than usual, and you may find that projects you start, or investments you make, this year will benefit you for years to come.

It’s an excellent year for pleasant and stirring discussions, passion for your personal interests, falling in love or boosting love through communications, and a special enjoyment of creative writing or sharing ideas. You can make powerful observations this year, and counselling or guiding can figure strongly.

Friends could be made on trips or through education or shared interests. Publishing, learning, or promoting can figure strongly. It’s a good year to connect with people with mutual interests. Cooperation can result in some great progress and success.

You’re keeping up to date and “in the know” this year. You feel good about your attachments and confident in your relationships.

Highly creative ideas can fill your head. Your mind is open to new methods and styles that work well for you. This can be a good time for updating your electronics and technology in ways that open up new avenues for communication or ease.

It’s a powerful year for expressing yourself, creativity, and passionate interests and ideas. Discussions are often animated, perhaps sometimes over-stimulating. You’re enthusiastic, interested, and interesting.

You enjoy improved mental connectedness or more energetic attention to communicating and sharing ideas. With a Mercury-Mars connection in your Solar Return, you’re putting your ideas out there more confidently, and you’re more inclined to put your ideas into action than usual. This influence gives you more energy or enthusiasm for learning, sharing, writing, and discussing.

Bursts of creativity and energy emerge at seemingly perfect times, and help you to further your goals. Healthy risk-taking is likely this year, as you are more able to spot an opportunity when you see one. It is easier than usual to break free from habits that have previously held you back from going after what you want in life.

You often draw on your inner wisdom or sixth sense and intuition to understand what’s happening around you this year. Previously hidden or unacknowledged talents may emerge.

It’s an excellent time to recognize relating patterns and use them positively to encourage creativity and excitement.

New ideas, methods, and connections can happen suddenly and bring you much happiness this year.

You could be lucky in love or find the year particularly rewarding for social activity or simply enjoying life more fully. There can be romantic joy, drawing honors or recognition to you, prosperity in creative or guidance fields, and some success with speculation.

I love that this year it actually said "you could be lucky in love," because I feel like that one never comes up. I COULD USE IT. 

Summary:

The year is powerful for new beginnings, learning, guiding, observing, and particular enjoyment of personal interests. You’re open to new things, and you can have lively exchanges and much to think about. You’re also finding ways to stabilize or put into order key areas of your life.

2023 is a Number Eight year for you. Ruled by Saturn. This is a year of power and accomplishment. Actively seeking to expand, taking educated risks, and moving forward are highlighted. This is a year of opportunity, particularly in the material and business world, and opportunities need to be seized. It's generally not a year to find a new love partner, simply because the focus is on the material world and your place in the world. This is a problem-solving year in which you can expect real, tangible results. Advice - take action, plan ahead, seize opportunities.

And never mind on the love thing, apparently :P

2024 will be a Number Nine year for you. Ruled by Mars. This is a year of completion and transition. It is a time when we need to let go of things that no longer serve their purpose, and hold on to things that have a future. It is a time of cleaning out dead wood, not necessarily for new beginnings. It can be a time when a burden has been taken off your shoulders, and it can be a year of giving of yourself. Advice - let go of things that are holding you back, give of yourself and express your sympathetic, compassionate side.

I do like the 7th/8th house stellium here, that's promising. 

Another astrological period

Frankly, things haven't been working out for me on the spiritual front, so I haven't had much interest in here lately. I continue to be a loser in love and everything else. 

But this (Zero Degrees Fixed Signs: Spring 2023) stood out to me since I've got stuff around those points. Around 3 degrees rather than zero, but close-ish. 

How to use this energy? It’s about transformation.  Amputate and reinvent!

You may also want to breathe life back into people and things you’ve amputated.  Bottom line, I’d rather work this energy than be worked by it.

I've been working on amputating the crush from my life. I haven't talked about this much here. I can't totally amputate since it's possible we'll be in the same orbit again in the future, but I've been cold shouldering him, in ways I don't feel good about. BUT he rejected me...and frankly, a lot worse within the last year than I last talked about, which is why I have mostly thrown "friends" into more "circumstantial friends" than anything else. 

Amputate and reinvent as someone who doesn't care, indeed. 

Or alternately...do what, exactly? 

I wish I could hope for this

The last time eclipsing was going on around my Venus and I was hoping to have love in my life, it didn't happen. 

Now it's back around that angle again (opposite Venus) and, well...I wish. But it looks like depressing ending season anyway.

And I am feeling pretty loser/rejected. As usual, because I am.